Grief and Anger
Anger Phase of Grief
The anger phase of grief is something that is fertile in sadness gripped with the frustration of the loss happening. Taking in all the impact of the loss. While not knowing where to show it but pour into the journal. This becomes a way of externalizing the emotions. Seems appropriate to cope with the pain of the anger. This way the anger is not held within and it has a container – the journal.
Releasing the Anger in Grief
The release of the anger in a way that makes meaning to me. Especially, in reflecting on the anger. The very soreness of the subject of loss turning into this twisted predicament that I need to face embodies the pain in a nutshell. Seeming to feel wrapped up in a chaotic pile. That slowly unraveling to piece together the left over pieces of my life.
Reminiscing Positive Memories of the Loved One
Slowly reflecting on it and easing through the pain as it moves through me in all fashions. This enables me to engrave the loss in imprints of memories. This creates a loving memory of its own with the grief entrenched pain and sadness and anger in the loss. This is a continuing timeline of memory lane past the loss that spiritually fits into my world view. Not just a spiritual but a reminiscing pathway into the past and future. Essentially put together into this nomenclature of reality.
Finding the Future with The Loved One
This new reality of finding the future with this loss in mind. This is how I derive the connection to the loved one as if they were here in essence. However, accepting their loss which so brings out the anger and the denial combined. The anger is sore in the body. Almost feels like a past memory of feeling angry for the loss. Eventually, it becomes translated into sadness.
Moving through Sadness
The sadness moves through. Then, awareness is born to the enclave of promises made. This ensures those promises are kept by this survivor of the loss, me. Mourning the loss does not stop at the brunt of the loss period alone. However, happens at any time a trigger of the loss happens, as in the reminder of the loss at any time in life. Then, I sit with the emotions that sweep through me.
Soulful Timeline
I hold space for my emotions to wash over me. I truly believe there is still the depth of love I feel for this missing element in life. Healing takes up new meaning with loss. This meaning is for the relationship with this loved one at this moment in time. This is essentially a memory created for this loved one and the survivor of the lost loved one – these two are memories a soulful timeline. Here’s to healing vibes all through!